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J for Jiayan ! ♥

Yours truly,

21stApril94 ; 15 years old.
Pasir Ris Secondary

I am blissfully attached.

Never let me go baby.
I am Junting's.

Hun, you're the best damn thing!
Silly bimbo is L-O-V-E. <3 (!)

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10April2009's romance ♥

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Cravings !

~~A great and memorable birthday~~ (L)
~~A great birthday for BabyJ~~ (L)(L)
Couple rings (!)
~~Couple mugs~~ (!)
Couple shirts (!)
Work again
Slim down and grow taller
Bling my phone
Naval piercing
Tongue piercing
~~Helix piercing again~~
Tragus piercing
A watch
A cute and awesome camera
Kimonos tops
Belts
Handbag
New bagpack
Slippers
~~Sandals~~

exits

history

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Went to Baby's cousin's birthday party over at Hougang last Sunday. It was kind of an unexpected trip and I thought I was not going to see him that day which made me really sad. ): So Baby's mum, Baby and I cabbed over to Hougang which cost around 8bucks (very cheap leh x.x). I had fun there because Baby's relatives were super friendly and funny and I kind of get used to go along with them. Walked around the neighbourhood with Baby before the bbq starts. Yummmmy! I didnt do any job, except putting the fishballs and prawns on stick. Hehe! :3 Then Baby cabbed me back to Bedok and I went home while he went to his friend's house. Boooohoohooo! I think that was all it summed up the event I attended. Fun fun! Hehe!

So as promised, pictures time! A few only la. Some others next time okay because I need to go do my work. Sianz. Bridging programme takes up time and energy and I havent learn a lot yet. .___. Oh yea, Chinese O's papers were easy except that I think I cant score an A2. Booomz! ): I took a look at the streaming results already. Quite good for the Express ones but... Keep the comments to myself. Haha!

Yah right. FAT. -.-

My babyboy did this on his own okay! Cute isnt it! Love you! (L)

(L)

So sianz. It seemed like everyone around me are complaining that they have to money ya da. I am also broke la. I got myself quite a few things to satisfy my materialistic needs but then.. I still need more of them. Cash please. ): I am not working during the holidays reason being, I want to see my boyfriend everyday and I want to work harder for my O's. ^^ So click on my Nuffie ads alright!

Double boomz. Baby isnt picking up my calls. Dang. D: Miss you la wahlau. Call me back asap bimbo. (L)

Click on my advertisements please people! Then leave me a tag and I will click on yours too! Tyvm.

Monday, November 09, 2009

Apparently, I am suuposed to revise for my chinese now because I am having my O's tomorrow. Damn itz. Wish me luck people because there's still A LOT of 报章报道 articles left unread. .___.

I am supposed to turn in at 11pm and wake up at 5.15am tomorrow. Ahhh! Nervous breakdown. Dangz.

Good night hunnyboy. Luvs

Somehow somewhat, Imma looking forward to spending my every Valentines' Day with you dearest boy.
Miss you so much. See you the day after. Muacks! (L) Must dream of me okie. I am going to join you soon! Luvluvluv. You're the last man I am holding onto. Please never let me go, I wouldnt bear to see your back leaving me. I wont be able to make it through my life without you hunny.

Byebye people. Click on my ads please. Tyvm! A PROPER UPDATE SOOON. &.&

Saturday, November 07, 2009

I am going out in a moment to meet Babyboy before proceeding to school then after that for an event. Hoho! ^^ Kind of excited because it'd been effing long since I last met babyboy. Boohoo! ):

I want to shop. I want to shopppppp! I bought myself a few undergarments (oops) and a pair of heels which I havent pay but I dont know when are they arriving. So thats the first batch of things I bought. I bought the heels for fun only la actually, because I prefer sandals more. (L) I am so going to get more tops and pants and another bag although I think I've got a lot. .___. Aiya, say say only hor. Maybe in the end never buy anything also. DANGGG. I also want a new phone for my new year pressie! ^^ MUMMY! I want......... can? ):

Okay, enough of ranting. I am going off. Byebye. Click on my advertisement. Thankyouverymuch.

Miss you hunnyboy.
Luvvs

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Current status: Missing Cho Junting. (L) Click on my ads please. Tyvm! ^^

See baby! I told you I will censor my stupid face. Heee! You are so cute la! :B Miss you so much!!!!!!! T.T T.T T.T T.T

That white bear is mine rom 100509, given by my dearest honey baby boy! Luvvvv! So nice to hug but I think he smells a little now! Hehehhe! Still like him the 2nd~ And my darling boy the first! Mwahs! ^^

And then that bluey flower was made by my sister, the balloonist in her idontknowwhatthatgroupname'scalled. Pretty right! I know the writing nicerrrrrrr. Heheheheh!

Today lessons were boring because I skipped 2 days of my lessons and I cant catch up today in school. I had a yummy Macdonald lunch and my bimbotic boyfriend gave me a hug from behind. So sweet and surprised but still loving it. (L) Then sent Lynnete to her block before going home. Hehehehe! Luvvv

5 more days to my Chinese O level papers. *shivers*

I've got nothing to blog laaa. Sianz.

Click on my advertisements okay people! Anyway, I've got a few pictures to upload provided I feel like it. Hahaha! And to my reader j, I will reply you when I got the time to. But right now, things are working out fine for me and my dearest boyfriend. Heee! Talking bout this, my boyfriend's getting so sweet because he forgave me when I did something wrong. Hahahah! Love you hunny and you know I always do. (L)

Miss you so much.

Text me soon okay! ): ):

It'd been long since you hug me. ): ):

Take care of yourself outside alright!

I've got so much to tell you

and I only want to let you know.

I wanna whisper I love you.

AH.

I LOVE YOU.

CALL ME SOON LA.

GOING

MAD.

MISS

BOYFRIEND.

AND

LOVE

BOYFRIEND

HOW

FAT

PIG

LOVES

STRAWBERRY

CAKE.

OKAY,

NOT

ENOUGH.

NEED

HIM

HOW

NEED

OXYGEN.

GOING

CRAZY.

END

OFF

WITH

LOVE.

Junting's.

Love you hunny baby for my entire life.

Mwahs!

(L)

I MISS CHO JUNTING LA. (Damnz it)

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

爱你爱得不顾一切了。为了你，什么都愿意。(L)

I cried randomly again. I suddenly think that a relationship isnt an easy thing to cope between two. It require a lot of things like mutual trust, patience and a lot of other things. Once something cropped up in the relationship, things tend not to be the same anymore. But if the couple are really so loving, nothing can actually tear them apart.

Darling，

我真的很怕。

我很怕我们会一直因为他而吵架。

很怕我们不会支撑下去。

很怕你会受不了我。

很怕你会不要我。

):

Dont leave me hunny.

I cant live without you.

(L)

想你想得快疯了。

对你的爱永远由你独占。

♥

爱你。
Junting's.

Monday, November 02, 2009

My secondary 3 life has officially ended today. Will I be able to cope the stress I am going to face next year? -faints- Where's my dearest superhero!? Miss you. (L)

Sorry for not blogging the last few days.

Anyway, I will update you guys about myself only for this post.

Holistic results for 2009

English - C5 (-.- EOY paper was a killer.)
Higher Mother Tongue - B4 (-.- I expect a B3!!)
E.maths - A2 (Can be improved)
A.maths - B3/B4 (Couldnt remember but I did pretty well for my MYE AND EOY papers. Jiayou Jiayan!)
Chemistry - A2 (Can be improved)
Physics - C5 (Yay, passed! But can be improved like at least a B4 or what.)
Combined Humans - C5 (Can be improved!!)

I got top ten for class position this year, and I got a 2 digit for my level position. Although they are not important and my L1R4 or L1R5 suck to the max seriously. ): I am happy for my results!!! ^^

Bridging programme for 3 weeks and O level Chinese paper in another week. Stress to the max. Wish me luck. I want to get an A2 for my Chinese paper please!

Next thing, I am sick. It really feels sucky and miserable to get sick, whats more I am having lessons for three weeks. Damn it. It had been like that for 2 days I guess and Baby's there to take care of me and treat me like a Baby! Hoho! Although we sort of hit on a stone yesterday, I realise how much I really cant do without him. Its real darling. I really love you a lot and I hope I wont lose you. The bullshits in the past are NOTHING. I can give you more love, care and concern. You are my last and only. You are just so precious to me. You took away my breath and I can only rely on you now to live. So please, dont leave me alone. I cant take it. Hope I get well soon so that I can take care of you alright. (L) I've got so much morw to say but headache is killing me. Sorry hunny. But you should know by that phone call just now that I really cant live without you. I am not faking, my feelings for you are true and its hard like a diamond or the hardest thing in the world. Nothing can scratches us or tears us apart. Believe in me, I am your first and your last. I love you and nothing gonna change my love for you. You're irreplacable. (L) (L)

Sian sian sian. Hate to be sick! ): It meant I cant meet Baby. ): ): ): It meant I cant go school for lessons. ):

Before I go visit a doctor, last thing I want to remind you.

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{EDITED!!!}

I am given a 2 days MC. Booo! This meant that I have to skip a lot of lessons which definitely is a disadvantge. And also, I wont be able to meet up with Baby!!! Or, maybe I can if I am fit enough to go out and find him! *yay I miss him so much now laaa. Call me soon okay hunny? (L)

好想你啊，亲爱的！
爱你。
Junting's.

Friday, October 30, 2009

Its my fault.
Crying is all that I can do to express myself right now.
I didnt held you back today.
Your eyes were totally different.
I can feel frozen right infront of you.
I cant catch my breath.
I am sorry that I couldnt give you the happiness you wanted.
I am sorry that I couldnt change what had already happened.
This relationship makes you suffer a lot.
And its all my fault.
Tears mark my way home just now.
Tears kept rolling down my cheeks when I recieved your sms.
I am happy that you did reply me but extremely devastated about what you said.
Darling, the bond that held us together will always be strong
because I never gonna leave you.
I will be right here for you.
I am a useless bitch who cant make you happy.
But I am the only useless bitch who can love you like today's the last.
Babyboy, I really want to stay by you, and be with you for the rest of my life.
We can take a step at each time and walk through the obstacles together.
I know I am tearing you apart.
But hunny, the last thing I want to know or hear is that you said you dont want me anymore.
Our love will be able to pull us through.
The only thing I want from you other than love is, put everything behind us.
This fucking bullshits history shall be left behind.
Hunny, it may be hard.
But I can really tell you I had removed him in my life, in my entire world.
I believe you can do it.
I hope you can give me the chance to stay with you.
I am sorry I cant be the best girlfr.
But I wanna be the girl who love you most, who cares for you most.
I cant live without your presence in my life.
Till death seperate me from you.
Luv

j: u are good enough alr to admit that is ur fault... reali... there are gals when did the very wrong thing in the world in the world, but not even a sorry came out from her mouth or a msg or blog...
j: junting will treasure u de, i am sure, he is a good guy, so treat him better if u think u are not doing so...
j: i am touch of wat u wrote everytime, u bother to apologise when u are in the wrong, i reali like this kind of character...
j: if ur heart is connected, wat more u hv to scared even is death?? i bet u would rather him die earlier cos the 1 who lives suffer the most rite?? so last long long long with him... all the best

I am going to reply you here because I'd really got a lot to say. Junting's a very good guy, he did treasure me a lot and used his very best to make me happy. Although I had treated him the best, I still think that I wont be able to mend back his heart and cover up all the wrong doings I had done. I bother to apologise because its really all my fault. I really want him to be by my side. But you know, the wrong one is me. I am the one in wrong, I hurt him time and again. He said before that he had the choice not to be with me yet he chose to. I am over the moon. I am using my very best to treasure him, to love him and care about him. I really cant afford to lose him in my life. But you know what, we still quarrel over the same old thing. I really dont mind but I am afraid our relationship will go haywire. I am afraid he might break with me because he couldnt tolerate anymore. Yes, I rather he die earlier so that he wont have to live and suffer the agony of my death. But I dont have the courage to leave him alone in this world. No matter how much I gave into this relationship, I still think its not enough. I wont to get him over my past, over all the obstacles. There's no use admitting its my fault. There's no use apologising. Dear readers, I hope you know that this entire thing is my fault and I really want to mend it to him. I really do love him and I hope we could be sweet and loving. But things arent just easy. I couldnt be a good girlfriend. But I want to be someone who can stay by him and love him for the rest of my life..

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Thanks for your blessings wishing me a lasting relationship with my Babyboy.

But its definitely not easy. I am not what you think I am. I am a lousy girlfriend. Many things happened between us, and its really all my fault. I do really love him a lot and I wish I could never be part with him. We kept quarreling the same thing over again, but I dont blame him. And my love didnt change at all even the days were hard. I can do nothing except to treat my boyfr the best which I already had. I know no matter what I do, there's still this scar left on his heart. You guys may think I am superb or what, but I am actually not. I regretted myself not giving my Babyboy too much trust. I pull in all my love, my might and everything a relationship needs to nurture, I gave it. I couldnt ask for his forgiveness. He told me, our relationship will forever be rocky because we're on the same topic everyday. I dont mind, I seriously dont. I am willing to walk through these obstacles with him. For one day, he will be able to know how muc he actually meant to me and how much my love for him weighs. No doubt I treat him the best out of all my boyfrs, no doubt I love him most. But no doubt, I hurt him the most. Apologise? I had do that 123456789 times. Its okay if he didnt forgive and forget, because he's still my boyfr afterall. He's still the guy I love most. I am willing to do anything to exchange for his care and concern. All I wanted was to continue to embrace in his arms. Ever tried losing your way or direction in a big mall? Then you will get panic, sad and cry, and all sorts of things. If he were to leave me, I will feel that way and its 148972394732423 times worse than that. I dont regretted crying for him, falling in love with him, doing silly things with him. But I regretted hurting him because I was his first girlfriend. People say first love dont last. I am going to prove that wrong. Absence makes the heart grows fonder, and that is why I want to see my Babyboy every second. I treasure all my time with him. I'll never get sick of looking at him everyday. I feel blessed. I am someone who dont express well verbally. I can only express my love for him through other type of things like letters, blogs and etc. I wrote him a number of letters and I am glad that I am the first to do so. I really want to make my Babyboy feel as blessed as what I am feeling right now. But I doubt I can achieve it. I dont mind but hunny. You know I seldom whipser sweet things in your ears. But look at this, I am really sorry for what I had done in the past. I dont ask for your forgiveness. Trust me, I will stay right here by you and walk through everything with you alright. I love you darling, and that will be forever true..

If I were to put down a expiry date on this relationship, it will be undefined. I am crazy over him. Sometimes I ask myself, will I still be able to see him after I die? Then at this point of time, I will start to cry. Death is a cruel thing, because death is going to seperate us. ): Death is going to seperate my parents and siblings from me, my lovely friends from me and snatch him away from me. But is there any other choice? I chose to, put him at the deepest in my heart. Forever, you will be remembered. Luv

I spent about half an hour typing this short post because my computer is effing lagging and the letters appeared 1 every 2 seconds which is super irritating. If it was the past me, I would have shut down my computer and stopped blogging. But however, I insisted to because I wanna tell my darling boy, how much I love you so. I wanna let you guys know that I am playing the bad person in this relationship and I am doing my very best to make my Baby feel happy. Hunny, I am really sorry. ): I love you.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

A few random things to keep my readers updated ^^

1) I've got to know a new friend, Jasmine! Hehehe! Last long with R yaw. Luvs. She can make a very good friend I swear. Fortunate or what.

2) 13 more days to my 7th monthsary with Baby. Luvluvluv

3) I will be posting up my results in the next post when I get back my report book.

4) Shool's boring.

5) Audition is fun with Lynnete. Luv

Ah, you see, random.

Last but not least, I love you Darlingboy. We will be able to make it through all the obstacles alright. Thanks for being there with me and tolerating my nonsense. Thanks so much for not flaring up because of my past. You know I love you most. (L) I wanna give you the best of everything. He is just bullshits. Dont compare, because you're always the winner. Luvs. We both know how much we cant live without each other. Hang it on there. I will bring you through, with all my might. You're correct. You can like whatever girl you liked, but you accepted me. Its a great challenge, but thanks you didnt regret it. 6 months 18 days and counting. I'll be there at the next moment when you need me. Muacks! (L)

You're bullshit. Fucking worthless bastard. I hope you know how much I hate you now. You wont be in my life like ANYMORE. Get a life, you think you deserve to love? Tsk, I laugh. Please, even if I dont deserve it, I dont think you do. You are far worst than the lousiest man in this world. Everybody will see your true colours bastard. -'-

Ahah, whatever. Mr L says no vulgarities and Babyboy wont like it. Hope he wouldnt be angry. T.T Love you hunny. (L) (L) (L)

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